Netherlands (Querido)
Domestic rights sales: German Radio Play (DAV)
Selected for New Books in German – translation funding guaranteed for the English language
A heartbreaking and unflinching reckoning with unthinkable loss
In precise and piercing language, Yannic Biao Federer tells of the loss of his son, of saying goodbye and care work, of parenthood and love. I See You Everywhere, Forever is a document of grief and mourning – and of the healing power of storytelling.
Charlotte and Yannic are expecting a child. Between prenatal screenings, wrapping up projects, and entering their income into parental allowance calculators, they are getting ready to start a new life as a family. Then comes...
In precise and piercing language, Yannic Biao Federer tells of the loss of his son, of saying goodbye and care work, of parenthood and love. I See You Everywhere, Forever is a document of grief and mourning – and of the healing power of storytelling.
Charlotte and Yannic are expecting a child. Between prenatal screenings, wrapping up projects, and entering their income into parental allowance calculators, they are getting ready to start a new life as a family. Then comes catastrophe. Their son, Gustav Tian Ming, dies. While a moment ago they were googling changing tables and ordering nursing pillows, suddenly they find themselves picking out a baby coffin and deciding what kind of plot to buy at the cemetery. Everything feels wrong. Like some cruel joke. But it’s all really happening. Devastated relatives and friends travel to be with them or pay their respects from afar, taking sacrifices to the temple. And while the couple are battling against a bureaucracy that seems to have no idea how to deal with stillborn babies, Yannic begins to write down what is happening around him. It’s an attempt to make sense of what they are going through, to find a language for the grief and the pain, but also for the warmth and love that is concealed within them.
»Bright light spills through the window, warming up the room, and I take off my sweater, walk around in a T-shirt. I know it’s just weather, but I can't help but believe it’s my son.
Look, I say, Gusti is sending us some morning sunshine.
Yeah, says Charlotte, looking up, smiling. Yeah, he’s consoling us.
Exactly, I say, he’s keeping an eye on us.«
It is the late summer of 2001 in the backwoods of Baden. On the television, there are images of the World Trade Centre collapsing. Jian is sixteen and in love with Sarah, but sleeps with Anna who has just broken up with Frank. After that, Sarah doesn’t want to have anything to do with Jian anymore, nor Jian with Anna, and Frank is caught up in his own self. Fifteen years later Anna is in a...